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Shutter IslandI just watched "Shutter Island" and It made me really think about some things. I've had these thoughts before but not so intense.
It made me wonder if I am actually crazy, and I am in some mantle asylum but I don't know I am because I have made up my own little world in my head because I can't actually deal with reality or I don't want to.
I always wonder if I am crazy, especially after one of my Sleep Paralysis things. But, if you ever think you're crazy, doesn't that mean you're sane? Because crazy people always say that they're not?
I don't know. Maybe I over think things (well I know I do that) but sometimes. I don't even know anymore. My head is always filled with things so it's hard for me to think a constant thought without other thoughts jumping in and scrambling everything up.
I always have a sort of plan before I start writing things up but as I start writing other thoughts pop up and makes me forget my original ones. That is how much of a mess my head is.
I See The Light...Since I got my bracelet a few weeks ago, at night when I'm in bed and I move to fix my blanket, grab something, stretch, well anything that involves the hand the bracelet is on I wear it to bed- I sometimes see a little flash of white light on the surface of the charm. Like, a light is reflecting only off that part. But here is the scary part; my room is always pitch black. No lights. Nothing.
I get scared then shove my hand under the blankets. I have tried making a habit of not using that hand but if I do I am always closing my eyes.
I told my friend about it because a few weeks before that I had been seeing these, white flashes in my room and she told me they were angels (she knows a lot about angels and spirits and all that jazz), I then told her about the bracelet and she said it might be an angel or spirit IN the bracelet, she doesn't know for sure because she's never heard of anything like this.
She asked me if the person who gave me the bracelet was spiritual in any way an
a dangerous hallucinationThe light coming through the window was bright,
much too bright.
Even though my eyes were closed
I could see it-
The skin of my arms prickled,
sweat dripped from my brow.
It was two in the afternoon but…
the sun was setting
through the window facing east.
I should have seen the hutch,
shelves lined with bone china
decorated with delicate leaves and vines.
I was so thirsty
and reaching for cups that should have been there.
Instead I found a billboard of butterflies,
the colors raging
more than any rainbow
I'd ever seen.
Their wings fluttered and flashed
yet somehow they moved in slow motion.
I wanted to stand,
wanted to reach out and touch them but…
I couldn't move,
and yet I laughed
ignoring my dry mouth
and the tingling in my feet.
There was a tempest
on the rise
and in my blood.
A sugar rush disguised
as a riot of butterflies
and they were swarming me.
There was a small vial
of insulin in my pocket
that I nev
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